Five Things I Did Buy
Plus A Few Things I'm Still Lusting After.
Remember me two weeks ago? That person who was like, “look at me, out here existing and not needing more stuff”? Who was that person?
I am gearing up to head back to New Mexico and I think my feelings about that—the stress of travel, saying even a temporary goodbye to people I care about—hit me hard.1 Maybe also hormones? Maybe also having held strong through so many of the big sales? Maybe also starting to feel a touch of boredom with the limited clothes options that I brought with me? I can be all sanctimonious about how freeing it is to have a single-load-of-laundry-sized wardrobe, and then there comes a day, after about a month of wearing the same 5 shirts in rotation, that I crave something different. I’m the same way with food! Do not make me eat leftovers for more than two meals! The monotony creeps up on me and then I’m hitting “add to cart” so fast.
I feel some amount of shame sharing this, because I aspire to really internalize that I have enough stuff and to never feel tempted by a marketing email. I buy things in person when I can. I find more ethical options. But I am human, I live under capitalism, and I experience desire to buy things all the time. Sometimes I am just staring at my phone, avoiding feelings, avoiding future, avoiding planning, and gladly handing over my credit card number for the privilege to do so.
So, okay, here we are!
Five Things I Did Buy This Week, Some More Guiltily Than Others
